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I now have a 4 year old!

Sometimes I just stand in complete awe.

Today I have a 4 year old! I can’t get over the fact I even HAVE kids, let alone a 4 year old. ūüėČ

4 year old

Adam, my husband, did the decor on the cake.

I have to say though, he truly is a sweet heart.

He has been looking forward to his birthday for a while now, so it was fun to wake up and get to tell him: “Today is the day!” ¬†The smile was priceless.

Children sure do make life so much more interesting, and enjoyable in so many ways. Even during the hard times I love them. ¬†Then there are those times I hear “I love you, mommy” that make me melt and burst at the seems with happiness.

As I walk through memory lane in my mind with my first born, I remember SO much of being a first time parent. Things that have changed so drastically since having Noah, and I am sure will be all the more changed with Abigail.

Entering into parenthood was not easy for me, and goodness knows Jeremiah was NOT the easiest child to deal with.  He could not poop on his own literally for 11 months straight..  He was colicky. He was effected by certain ingredients in foods, and sugars.  He is fine now, thankfully. But it was a roller coaster of a ride for me, that started the moment I hit transition in labor with him.

It always seems that first births are the hardest, longest and so on. Mine was pretty short in comparison to most, but the doctor I had was not the best. I should have left and gone to another one, but alas I didn’t. ¬†Needless to say I survived the forceps and the major loss of blood (he wasn’t gentle), and was well onto my way of being a mother.

Although I had grand ideas of being the best mother, i.e.

  • Breastfeeding perfectly
  • Changing diapers with no issue (the first real poop explosion, I almost puked and Adam had to change it. haha)
  • All in all, that happy picture perfect mother you THINK you might become

I was in pain, tired, and breastfeeding was going horribly. My goal to breastfeed was simply to lose weight. Sad I know, but it was the drive. Not a big one as I stopped only 4 weeks in.

I realized I didn’t WANT to be a mother anymore. ¬†Trials and tribulations later (14 months to be exact) I finally gave in, I finally excepted my role. At long last I wanted to be a mother to my son, my beautiful first born, Jeremiah.

I thank the Lord so much for that boy. The Lord used him to mold me into a mother, and continues to use both my kids to mold me, change me.  I would never give up those hard years with my boy, I could only wish I had loved him more deeply then.

But now as I look at him, with tears in my eyes I can’t imagine life with out this sweet, caring, hyper little boy that brings me joy that I can’t even explain.

Today just reminds me all the more of Jesus’ love, and how thankful I am that He gave me Jeremiah as my son.

4 year old



  1. Mom says

    Yes, it is hard to believe you are a mother of a 4 year old. And Jeremiah was the most interesting child for you to start with. I was learning new things with you. :O) He is a pretty nice kid to have around, though. :O) I can’t imagine life without him either. :O)

  2. says


    It goes by quickly doesn’t it? I know that my son just turned 4 a few weeks ago and I still don’t know where all the time went! However, I do know to grab hold of each day and live it to the fullest with my son. I don’t want to look back someday and say I missed anything.

    Aaron Brinker aka DadBlunders

    P.S. Happy Birthday Jeremiah!
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  3. Nancy says

    Wow!! Can’t believe he is already 4. I still can’t get over the fact that Yuri is 6 and Peter in just 3 months will be 1. They grow so fast, don’t they? It looks like his birthday was fun, we sure wish we were there to help celebrate this special day with him. He looks very happy!! I love the cake. :)

    • says

      I can’t believe Yuri is 6 either! That’s right, Peter WILL be 1 soon. It does feel like the second child goes even faster though. Wonder what a third will feel like. ūüėČ

      It would have been fun if you guys could have been here. He does talk about Yuri often, amazingly. He enjoyed playing with her during Christmas a few years ago. :)

      And that cake was fun to try and figure out! Those are actually Jeremiah’s toys on top. They don’t have lego “kits”, so I ordered a Sesame Street road cake and Adam decorated it with the legos.

  4. April says

    Wowzers! That cake ROCKS! I bet that he L-O-V-E-D it to pieces… literally! He definitely is a cool kid! I only got to play with him that one time & he was such a blast to have around! Please tell him that we said ‘Happy Birthday’.

      • Aunt Rose says

        Hi Sarah!

        WOW! Jermiah is 4 now….your article made me laugh and I only wish that you guys lived closer to us so that we could celebrate together! I am glad that he is having a special day…..:-))

        Much Love,

  5. says

    As my first born approaches 19, I look back and remember the early years with such fondness. There’s something precious about that firstborn.

    Our similarities continue… Our second son (God was merciful with #1 or there wouldn’t have been a #2 or #3) couldn’t poop on his own either. Horrible!!! Glad we’re both past that!

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    • says

      Oh wow, I never would have guessed! It’s hard to deal with a child that can’t poop on their own. Glad we are past that as well. :)

      And true, there is something precious about the firstborn. Someone a while ago said the first born’s birthday was the birthday of becoming a mother too. I thought that was cute. :)

    • says

      Totally true! When I hear the “I love you’s”, and even the “I like you’s”, I think it’s so sweet. Also to watch them turn into little sweet people. Makes the struggle to raise them right, all the more worth it. :) They are a blessing, each one! :)

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